5.31.2008

Material Possession #002

My chess set that i don't use as often as i would like to. My girl bought it for me a while back. It is Chinese made. They are terracotta warriors on a dragon board.



Writing and Me

There are some things in this world that are true no matter what. The sky is blue, water is wet, and tomorrow will always come. I also believe that some things are only true if you make them so, such as writing. But to put truth into your writing you need a voice. In order to have a voice, you need to know yourself. I think that's what prevented me from fully establishing a productive relationship with the art of writing up until now. You see, i have in the past struggled with my identity. Being young, black, and male in North America doesn't leave much room for self discovery and self exploration. You are meant to be a stereotype, you are not an individual, and when you step outside of the boundaries of what your supposed to be, you are now faced with question of your identity. To some, the idea of not to knowing who you are, or who you should be based on the colour of your skin and your environment might be unheard of, or even absurd. But i think that most people can identify. This is more than just the black experience; more broadly its an aspect of the human condition. The lack of individuality in society is perpetuated by Television, mainstream music, BET, Hollywood, and mass media in general. I am embarrassed to say that this did effect me at one point, and it probably still does. But i will try to defy this weakness. Through my writing i will express my individuality and hopefully i will grow beyond what i feel i should be, and be what i am. I will create the truth in my writing, i will define my identity.

Cold Feet

There were so many ways to start this posting but i couldn't think of even one. As im writing this now i still dont have a title for it... does that even matter?

When i started this blog i was hoping to be honest about things. I wanted to reveal my thoughts and ideas to people who were interested in them. But it never occurred to me how weird it would feel knowing that i would reveal much of my inner most thoughts to friends and strangers alike. Is this just my personal inhibition, or is it part of the process of finding my own voice? I guess i never expected to care about what people thought about what i think. But im going to go with it anyways. As weird as this feels, im going to be honest and im going to keep writing...

5.30.2008

Blogging & Me

Life is meaningful. That's the first truth. That is the first truth. That is truth. Through pain and pleasure, life teaches us, and develops us. Life is meaningful.

People dont always observe their growth. When you don't observe how you are growing and how your reality is unfolding in your life... your missing it. It doesn't always have to be documented in public, like this blog, or even in a personal journal. But an occasional gentle meditation reflecting on who you are, and how your changing inside of your existence in essential. This is the key to balancing your energy with the rest of the universe. This is the first step in understanding the first truth, that life is meaningful.

In trying to finding that meaning, im starting to suspect that the journey is the meaning; and i think that's why i have a need to start this blog. So that i can experience my journey in a new way, and maybe ill see something that i never saw before... This is a journey to the inside of my mind...

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Death of a Beard

After a valiant attempt at growing a beard, my four week journey has come to an end. It is with great sorrow that i inform you that i have returned to my familiar and boring, but dangerously handsome, shaved face. It was fun while it lasted. Maybe one day we'll meet again... Hopefully with less patchiness...

5.27.2008

Material Possession # 001

Any fans of transformer will appreciate this... Masterpiece Megatron!


...Round 4

I suppose i can start this blog by acknowledging that im starting a new blog. But being aware that im just starting out somehow seems to prevent me from getting past the first post. This is my 4th time attempting to start a personal blog... So ill just get into it and see where it goes... I guess i just acknowledged it though... hmmm.



Thats me. Im 27... Just like everyone else, im the process of figuring out this life thing. I have a beautiful fiancee. Im black. Im sometimes distracted and sometimes focused... I joined the no meat club about a year ago, and im attempting to grow a beard...